When the devil came, he was not red

Well, I received another warning from a friend about this here blog. Don't write about her, he says, 'cause everybody knows about it. I told him I received a similar warning earlier, and am taking it under advisement. I spoke to a friend about this last night, who told me I should just password-protect it so I could keep it juicy...

Honestly, I'm not sure what I want to do. I don't want anyone's feelings to get hurt - but then I don't think I will ever write anything here that I wouldn't just tell anyone anyway, you know? Of course, I want to keep this juicy - I like the freedom to write what I want, and it's been this way all summer. And now, knowing that everyone knows about it, and apparently reads it, that freedom is abridged, which is a bit of a bummer.

I can't deny, though, that I like knowing a lot of people read this, it's kind of an ego boost, in a way (as if my ego needed boosting). So that's the other option: to keep things as they are; let anyone who hears about it to read it; probably tone down the talk a bit, especially about the girl; and pretend that I don't know all the people who read it know who I am, and that I know they know I know, etc.

The problem with option 1 is that I'm not going to invite somebody who feels they should be invited. There is someone out there, reading this right now, who thinks they should be included in this, and they're not going to be. Such decisions are no fun, nor is the fallout that will follow.

The problem with option 2 has already been mentioned - this will become a little boring. Probably a lot more law school talk and less personal stuff. And the latter is really what this blog has become, especially since the dawn of the summer of AddledTM starting with CPP.

There may be a third option, a sort of addendum to option 2 - just tell the girl about the blog and let the pieces fall where they may. I would still likely tone it down, but maybe not as much, knowing she reads, or is at least aware of it. I wonder if she would read it? I've been pretty open with her, forthright about feelings and opinions and such (this is part of the reason we're getting along so well - the ease of such communications), so maybe blogging about it wouldn't be that much of a change for her, or between us.

What's the verdict? I need your opinions. Funny, too, because you anonymous readers aren't going to give your opinions, are you (I don't mean the anonymous readers I know about, who regularly comment, of course)? And you anonymous readers will be the ones left out in the cold if I privatize this blog. But for the rest of you, let me know your opinions.


ETA: told the girl about the blog last night. Phrased it as a sort of a confession, and she was actually taken aback by it, a bit. I offered to give her the site address, but she said "no, I'll choose blissful ignorance." That was kind of odd, no? Wouldn't you want to read this if I confessed it to you? I would. Anyway, there it is.